By a show of hands, how many of you lose control of your tongue every now and then? That many? Glad to know I’m not alone! (Releases a dramatic breath that I was holding and wipes the sweat from my brow.) Great now that I know that I’m not the only one I feel more comfortable about sharing my struggles with you all.
I have to start off by saying that I love being a Mother! I believe that I was called to be a mother to many and I wouldn’t want to live anyone else’s life; however, I’m a yeller sometimes! I think it’s 60% my personality and 40% my children! I’m just a loud girl, I laugh loudly, I cry loudly, truly no one would ever accuse me of being quiet! That’s my husband, very quiet almost never yells, and he is very reserved. Even in moments of panic or extreme joy, my hubby is very low key.
Well earlier this week my oldest was literally driving me crazy! My kids are at home on summer break for about two more weeks and I feel battle tested! He is not a rude child or disrespectful or anything like that, but he is extremely forgetful!
My child leaves everything open, he leaves the truck doors open, he forgets to close the garage door, he leaves the side gate open, water running, fridge doors open, shower running, lights on, should I continue? Even as I’m typing this I’m laughing because on paper it sounds funny!
However, I was not laughing earlier this week, and let me tell you why. We were all sitting in the truck and someone forgot their shoes, so I asked him to run back in the house and grab some shoes from the shoe area by the door right inside the foyer. Ten minutes later he comes back with a snack and puts his seat belt on while we all watch. I was flabbergasted and frustrated that he came back with food and no shoes! Well guys I yelled at him and I felt so bad immediately because he looked so regretful, and so sad about the whole thing.
Every since that day I feel like I’ve been trying to be make sure that I don’t yell at my kids because I don’t want to sow anger into them. I would hate for my children’s memories to be filled with me yelling. I want them to feel loved and to know that I love them, because I showed them everyday. Naturally, I prayed about it, but I was still feeling some major guilt and I just couldn’t seem to forgive myself.
I was listening to the Word while getting dressed this morning and I heard this scripture and it was exactly what I needed. Col4:6 “Let your speech be alway with grace, seasoned with salt, that ye may know how ye ought to answer every man.(KJV)
You may be noticing a theme with my blog this week and that was totally unintentional I promise, but once again God was dealing with me on the subject of grace. I kept meditating on that scripture and I began to realize that what I’m lacking is grace and salt. When I speak to my children I need to use words that will strengthen them where they are weak and encourage them to be better. My words should be building them up and helping them grow. I don’t know why it’s so easy to forget that I was a child once too, and I made mistakes and forgot things just like my son. I was allowing my frustrations to control my words and because of that I was speaking seeds of frustration instead of seeds of grace, joy, life, love and encouragement. My words should comfort the hearts of my children and when I’m not guarding my tongue
I’m finding that when I hide the word in my heart, that’s what comes out of my moth when I’m frustrated and upset. I don’t want to give off the false impression that I’m perfect now, or cured from yelling and that I’ll never yell again. That may be a stretch, but I do hope that I remember the words to that verse, and other verses as well that bring my mouth back under submission to the Word of God.
We all have things that we struggle with and we all can be strengthened when we share or testimonies of how we have overcome, or how we plan to deal with our problems. Thanks for listening to my issue today, and feel free to share something that you are in the process of overcoming in the comment section. You never know it might be exactly what someone else needs to hear!